As I sit here in this lonely night, tapping furiously on the keyboard to form words, apparently to convey heartfelt emotions...I can not help but look back at the picture which the year 2009 painted.
A plain canvas with a maze of dots to join. The beautiful trip marked the start of this year soon to be bygone. And like most things which you want to last forever, this too came to its short end. Alas...life moved on. And how! The two month internship taught me more about life than it was supposed to about the way businesses are run. Very insightful to say the least. And these two months included travel to one of the most beautiful places I have been to...
Then came the changes. Changes? Is it not the word usually clubbed with inevitability? Yes. But then, when its the change that shows up wearing a mask...seems like the dream you pained to live...and when no one is looking, takes it off to reveal the nightmare you will be living, it is pretty unpleasant!
But then, the dreams shatter. The broken pieces hurt. It bleeds. And it clots up to live another day. Another Dream.
One friend once told me: Whats wrong with falling down? Because you can always get up and start again!
So I cleaned up the Broken glass pieces and got myself a brand new dream to dream.
Moved from one mirage to another...
I retrospected.
I introspected.
I ran.
At least tried to. From the pain that engulfed me in its wild fire. But as the Fab Four song goes, with a little help from my friends, Oh I get by with a little help from my friends! Mmm, I'm gonna try with a little help from my friends. I was my previous self! The one which I had lost somewhere in the pages of history. And I was back. Smiling. Laughing. Dancing. Wondering. Wondering if this is a dream I longed to live? Wondering if this Dream is short lived like its predecessors have been?
Wondering...
The past that was..
The future that could have been...
Looking back...do the Dots join?
Here I am hoping that the new year does not present me with a new labyrinth of dots...too messed up that I end up sulking at the past rather than embracing the future...
